Monday, October 27, 2003

ok,its da 1st day of da fasting month and so far so good. Apart frm sum giddy spells, all haf been smoothsailing. Cnt believe tat i actuali haf homewrk-hist summore. Wad da hell?! sch is going to be over and da hw is now coming in. Still haf not finish with me pw o/p. Muz do it quick and get it done and over wif. Its gonna be da last stage so i better do a gd job. Aniwae, today was really cold and boring. Its like i juz haf onli 2 pathetic lessons tat in total is onli 2hrs. Da rest in sch library, cz my last lesson gp was cancel. Dis reali makes me tink twice abt whether to go to sch or not. Juz nw went thru da Maths paper and my heart was sinking. i think i am doing badly again. i m so sick and fed up. I dun wanna be retained but it looks like i am. i reali, reali dun want so i hope i not. I am so worried but i guess i juz haf to accept it. dis is reali not going to be da best 17 bdae if i not doing well. Haiz, i m scared but wat to do? Juz pray tat i atleast advance or maybe they let me sit da spesh paper later in da year. i hope and i reali wanna go into year 2. i reali wanna. Oh yah, my bdae is like nxt week and i was thinking whether is there any chance my ex will wish me. But ya noe wat? Its not gonna happen. No way. If he did, it will be like a miracle, muz go buy 4D. heheeh. i m so bloated up and now i haf to go practice my s.a.t. I like doing s.a.t. its quite fun and diff frm any other test esp the verbal; section. I kinda like it so tats y i wanna do well for da 1st time around. but i dun mind if i never got da grade tat i want cz i cn always retake it again. Results are out next week. Praying hard tat i cn at least pass. I wanna go year 2. Badly. I dun noe y i got dis sense of foreboding abt dis year hari raya celeb. Pretty scary and its not fun what wif an over imaginative imaginatio to boot. My brain keeps thinking of preposterous ideas tat its hard to diff betwn reality and fiction. Haiz, i reali am at slackers corner. muz pick myself up and juz get on con't persevering till i cn reali stop. KEEP IT GOING ANDI!!! DUN SLACK OFF SO SOON!!!!!!!!!1


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