Saturday, June 26, 2004

had a like reali big row wif my youngest sis juz now..it was reali major cz to da extent tat we were lke shouting to each other and like it was all da f*** and bitch words came out..it was kinda like a typical sibling-girl fight( i mean reali fight wif punches and kicks) but yet to me it was a way to express my frustrations which reali i shldnt cz its not fair to her..and da thing tat reali spark me off was dis fuckng attitude of hers to always control da remote and like watching da shows tat SHE wanna watch without caring for wa others want...i mean how fucking inconsiderate cn ya get? its kinda stupid but whu da hell cares? there were loads of like shout abt her go n die which upon now reflection was kinda morbid........i was still shaking after tat, couldnt even barely like hold my pen...it was reali reali like using her as my puching bag for my emotions, i mean i noe its not fair but hey, da situation is alredi like tat, so like wad is there not to do???things haf alreadi been tense betwen us and dis is gng to be worse..feel like apoligizing but i m not da type to like swallow my pride and apoligized FIRST..i mean i cn do tat wif frens but to my family members, i juz cnt!! i juz want to say tat its not her fault and tat i dun mean anythin tat i say and tat i use her as a punching bag but....maybe not now....wen things are like cooler or maybe like never at all....da physical pains is gng to fade away but not da emotional pain..


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