Tuesday, February 15, 2005

finally, i haf lose my contacts wif da rests.. i never did fel comfortable telling my frenz my opinions on blogs not because i dun respet them its juz tat sometimes, i dun want things to be misconstrued i mean i dunno want to like watch wad i m saying..a blog is supposed to be a frank place and knowing other pple mite read, esp da peeps ya noe makes it rather uncomfortable to me..i dunno, i hate like being cryptic n stuff its all so stupid y not juz be upfront abt it?? i mean its yr blog yr own place and to hell wif others say oh well..

hitting off to work later, which not looking forward to cz like its onli two hrs and i juz damn malas nak go out..besies da pay is kinda pathethic so like wad??? i think my boss is reali an idiot, okie or maybe i m juz jealous tat he assigned like fana loads of work even though da hrs is still short, only diff is an hr but still..its like kinda dumb..anyone thinking of leaving dis job looking for another one soon. i think he doesnt reali like me or doesnt reali gif me enuf credit?? whu da hell cares?? da pay is so damn pathetic anyway but da consolation is tat da kids are nice n fun anyway

i hate to say di but i think i m now so infatuatuated wif HIM( a new one) i feel so weak cz its like he is reali older than me by whole 6 yrs n his backgrd is totally diff, furthermore its kinda weird but i think i cnt help liking him..but on da other hand, tots always wander back to my ex..i dunno if i wanna go into a r/s now but pls, dun let cupid arrow strike its so embarressing..n he kinda annoys me a lot wen he start using endearments and talking abt l-o-v-e wen we haven even met or anythin..i so dunno anything abt him..so i m gng to find out more b/4 i put my heart on da line..i m def da type whu falls easily in n out of love so maybe dis time ard i dun think i will get burn cz i noe..trusts me...but its kinda fun cz likeya feel special n stuff but i guess deep down i m juz looking for somone whu reali understands me for me n not da screen i m showing but i guess deep down i m juz a girl looking for affection cz i m kinda love starved..he said he is gng to call me agn tonite n i cnt believe myself wen like dis morn i keep checking my fone to see if anyone msg me esp if its frm HIM..hahah..i feel so stupid but yet its kinda fun dis game tat guys n gals haf been playing but seriously i noe he may not be da one cz practically i doubt he cn support himself n furthermore i haf a higher qualification than him..dunno if ego can stand it...


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